Guys, I admit it. During our 2000 IM Championship soccer season, I was injecting human growth hormone into my stomach and applying an undetectable steroid creme as well. I tasted the drug that was winning my senior year of high school and couldn't look back - I had to have it again. I saw those Fiji guys and wanted to beat them so badly that I asked my trainer for help to get to that next level - ultimately, however, I did it because I wanted to help the team.
I apologize to all of my fans that I have let down and just wanted to warn you that Victor Conte may be naming me in the 20/20 expose this evening or tomorrow, whenever it is airing. I'm sure it will not come as a shock to you as I certainly have slimmed down, especially in the chest and shoulder are, over the past few years. In addition, the moments of uncontrollable rage some of you experienced which led to the Hostyle nickname were not the result of alcohol as many of you believed - rather, they were attacks of what is commonly referred to as "Roid Rage", a side effect of the withdrawal I was going through. My conscience just would not allow me to continue consuming the drug - that and the feds were on my trail, which leads me to my second confession.
In an attempt to deflect controversy from myself and in the face of a possible raid by FDA and ATF officials, I hid my steroid creme in the lotion bottle Stevie JJ alternates between his nightstand and desk (next to the computer with the porn on it). I have never told Steve about this, but hope that he has not suffered any adverse effects by using the steroid creme to masturbate with. So, Steve, I apologize to you and hope that, like the fact that I've seen you naked entirely too many times, this will not come between us.
